Day 4

Today was good and bad.  I was diligent about getting up and getting ready for church, but we left later than we like to.  We weren't technically late, buuuuuut.....

I had a hard time with my attitude today.  I need to be getting more sleep, because when I don't, all logic and reasoning skills go right out the window and I am reduced to running on emotion.  My inner child comes screaming (literally, screaming) to the fore and I wish to do nothing more than indulge in tantrums all day long.  I let little things that I can usually rationalize away (like: hating my job well, it's money to pay off debt and get a new car; or: I don't get to spend enough time with Paul well, he's in school and we're working hard to create a better life for ourselves and things will be better and easier in a few years; etc) overwhelm me until I can see only the problem and no solutions.  Church usually helps a LOT with this situation, and it certainly did today, but I still felt overwhelmed and cranky for most of the day.

We had a good afternoon at Grandma and Papa's house, just hanging out with the family.  B&J came over and it was a lot of fun to play with Lil' J.  Getting excited to meet Lil' J#2!  It was a good family afternoon.  We came home  a little earlier than usual, but we wanted to break the not-sleeping cycle.  I finished up some chores and Paul did homework.  And then, wonder of wonders!  I actually got to PRACTICE my HORN!  I can't believe it.  It felt really good to play and even though I only played for about 25 minutes, it was just a really nice session.  I'd forgotten how much I miss really playing.  I think I'll make it a regular habit again.  And, who knows?  Once I find a job with a better schedule, maybe I'll be able to join a community band or orchestra.  That would be a lot of fun.  :-)

I have an 8 am meeting tomorrow for work.  blech. I'm supposing it's all good news and policy updates, but I really do not want to fight 7 am traffic to find out. Oh! I almost forgot!  I have applied for a bunch of secretarial jobs at the Community College down here (better hours, better pay, less traffic) and some of them closed on Friday (some next Friday), so I am hoping and praying to begin receiving callbacks tomorrow.  Pray for that, please?  Our busy schedule is really getting to us both.

Time for bed soon.  Planning on getting there on time tonight and really feeling better tomorrow.  Happy Sunday!

Day 3

Not so hot today.  I'm just SO exhausted at 5:30!  Stupid staying up late for the last two weeks.  I think that needs to be a new focus of my study in diligence.  I need to be more diligent about getting to bed on time. It will make my morning routine better, it will make my work day better, the potential for fewer migraines is there, and if we go to bed on time, even Paul might feel better!

Soooo, yeah.  I went back to sleep this morning and did absolutely nothing!  I needed the sleep, tho, so I don't consider it a total loss.

Day 2

I did partly well and partly not well.  Here's the list.  Hopefully tomorrow will be better.  (Hopefully I can get to bed on time tonight!)

• Stayed awake when Paul left, check and kinda not check
• Exercised, check 
• Chores, not a single one! 
• Bible Study, check
• Left for work at 9:00, no. siiiiiiigh
• Didn't sit down when I got home, check

  

Day 1

God gave me great motivation this morning.  I stayed awake and did everything I was supposed to do.

• Stayed awake when Paul left, check 
• Exercised, check 
• Chores, check 
• Bible Study, check 
• Left for work at 9:00, nope, not even close!  sigh.  
• Didn't sit down when I got home, check

I'm feeling really good about this.  I've just gotta get better about leaving for work on time! 

Back on the Wagon Again

As you may have noticed, I haven't been posting lately.  There's a very good reason behind this, which then morphs into a less good reason and eventually becomes a lion. On the 22nd of March, I developed a migraine.  Not uncommon for me; in fact, quite the contrary! Anyway, this migraine lasted for four days, keeping me from work, from play, from chores. Pretty much all I did way lay around and complain.   I'm pretty sure Paul was as tired of me being sick as I was!  Poor man. Had to do all the chores.

Anyway, long story short, went to the doctor, got a shot, fell asleep, migraine went away, then came back with a vengeance, then went away again.  And that pretty much brings us to today!  Yeah.  It's amazing how missing a few days can take you allllllllll the way back to square one.

I will say that once the migraine went away, I did very well at not putting things off. If something needed doing, I'd do it right then and not wait, but I did NOT do anything at all as regards my morning routine or chores or exercise. It just kept building up. This Monday I was all set to get back on track. I was re-energized from Sunday (man, I LOVE church!), BUT, I had a meeting at work. But then, the meeting go postponed, so then I was back on track. But then I spent an hour and a half (an hour and a half!) playing FrontierVille on FaceBook *hangs head in shame*.

But the Lord gave me a swift poke in the ribs, increased my motivation and I got that distraction out of my life.  Ok.  Motivated again.  But then, I was undiligent about getting to bed on time (for the 5th day in a row) and was too tired (did anybody see my lion? I know I put him somewhere around here....) to stay awake on Tuesday and get things done.  siiiiigh.

BUT, I'm back now.  I got a lot done today!  I'm feeling really good and motivated.

Tomorrow?  Walking the dogs and cleaning (like, REALLY cleaning) the kitchen!  Plus, Bible study, the normal round of laundry and dishes, AND, since I've ditched the time wasters I'm hoping to have time to practice my horn (like, REALLY practice!).  That would be wonderful!

Pray for me, please.  I'm really going to need it.  Day 1 begins again tomorrow.

Purging

So, today, I got rid of FarmVille and FrontierVille on Facebook.  I had been thinking about doing it for awhile.  They were getting overwhelming.  I don't know how to explain that any further.  It just took so much time! I mean, I guess, I chose to give it the time.  I would sit down to play one or the other just for a few minutes and then "I'll start that new book, or maybe practice my horn, or maybe finish that afghan I started 15 years ago" and the next thing I knew it was 2 hours later and I'd done nothing!  Absolutely nothing!  No reading, no practicing, no crocheting.  No anything productive.  All my free time just poof! all gone.  And wasted.  It's not like they are particularly useful games.  No skills involved or gained.  No lessons learned. No wits matched. No social interaction. Don't get me wrong, they are fun.  And if other people play them and love them, there is no condemnation from me. Have fun and enjoy! They were just taking over my world.  And they are definite time-wasters.  So, in the spirit of diligence and sloth-less-ness, they are gone.

I don't think I'll miss them.